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Am I feeling better? No, not really. However, I DO feel more inspired. More of a "short term" inspiration rather than a "long term" one. That is, I can see merit in diverting myself with various activities, but I cannot understand, rationalize, or merit their purpose or worth (or that of myself).

My mom is gone camping this weekend, so that means I have this weekend to myself pretty much except for Sunday when I have to go to work. Strangely, I wish I were at school right now. I noticed that i get this way at the beginning of a term; I don't want to go and I don't want to go until the weekend and then I realize that I'm bored and I feel... BAD... this kind of guilty-bored-uncomfortable-MISSING feeling... and I just want to go back to school. confused It's especially this feeling like I'm out of place in my own skin, in my own house, and with people I know. Suddenly so out of place.

It's already 5:30, so a To Do Today List might seem a little stupid, but here 'tis nonetheless.
1) Put on something warmer *brrr the air conditioning is intense downstairs*
2) clean up room
3) scan mini comic
4) paint something
5) scrapbook? or at least organize the supplies that are on the floor
6) wash my blanket (the puppy vomited in my blanket EWWW HOMG
7) i dunno...