A)Me and Ryan broke up about 2 months ago, and frankly I could care less.
B)I like someone else (finally, it's been two months. lol). His name is Dylan... oddly the name of my brother too.
C)I want to date him but I'm afraid to ask. He's had a hard time with his Ex whose practically stalking him now by phone, and he already had a phobia of dating.
D)My friend Tiffany is trying to hook me up with her brother. O.O; He wants to go to the movies sometime. XD
E)My friend Ben likes me too. He's asked me out twice now. I've said no both times and I feel bad because if anything, I think his best friend is hot. O.o;
Okie. I fell all caught up now without explaining s**t. Wheee!
So yeah. I have no idea if I want to do tattoos or not anymore like I thought I did there for a while. Lately i've been feeling s**t about myself, don't ask my why, it's a moodswing I guess. I don't feel like i'm good enough for Dylan or really anyone at the moment, therefore my art is of course lacking. I feel like I suck at art and that I shall never get better. Maybe its the 4 Dr. Peppers talking at the moment, i don't know.
I wish i could just have the courage to actually TELL Dylan I like him. I think he knows, but we both have figured that neither of us can make the first move. I want the courage to actually be able to, but I can't when I'm feeling this shitty about myself. I don't know why I do-i've already said this, oh well-especially today when I got called gorgeous by Tiffany's brother-whose actually my age.
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I really want my cellphone. I'm getting one in two weeks. I just have to babysit for it. And that part kinda sucks. Damn. I'm going to be sick of my sisters by the time I leave in a week.
I got to go Canoeing for the first time and I had a blast. I just injured myself in the process is all. Actually, I injured myself getting out of it at the very end. I'm very Graceful. Not. Pfft. Yeah, here's the picture.
. Isn't it nice and purty? lol. So yeah. I guess we're all going again in September. Whoo! The water is going to be ******** freezing.But maybe Dylan can go. XD He wasn't able to go last week, so that kinda sucked. But I got to sleep with him. and not like that. clothes remained on. I just slept next to him on the floor. he's a very interesting person to sleep next to as he talks and is a violent dreamer. XD But then again... so am I. Just as long as I can actually FALL asleep. So yeah.
I don't know what else to put.
I guess school is starting back up July 29th or something. Gay. But that means I get to spend time with friends. It just sucks that I made friends with a lot of Seniors last year. But It also means that Im a Senior this year! Yay! excitement.
Oh! That means another thing.
I've lived in Tennessee now for a full year. I realized this on the 28th. Which is not only the day that i moved here but it's also Dylan's birthday. Go figure. XD I've been talking about him a lot, haven't I? Oh well. No one reads these things anyways. XD I just do it for my own amusement. razz
I think i'm done now.
Yeah... I am.
