Why
Why do I torment myself with these thoughts of you
why do I think of you
always these thoughts of you are eating me from the outside in and I cant take it anymore
this feeling is not new to me
Ive explained this all before
the torment is over bearing why do I think about what can and cannot be
tricking myself into thinking these thoughts of you will come true
Im chasing the wind and I cant find you in all this agony
im falling into a pit of sorrow that I wont be able to crawl out of
These feelings are tearing me open
revealing all of my pain and you dont seem to care
why do I torment myself with these agonizing but oh so wonderful fake thoughts of what could happen
tell me these feelings do you fell the same pain Im feeling
These feelings are not all new to me Ive felt this same pain the first time
I explained myself to you but you didnt seem to care
why?
Is this all for a lost cause
Im chasing wind in these thoughts of you
are these feeling just an empty pit of shame and sorrow
why?
These feelings that are entering my mind are turning me away from everything
I want I want you to be happy but Im feeling nothing from all the times you have hurt me before
It rips me in two no matter which way I think of it all
Why?
You know what I feel is love why dont you feel the same
I would do anything for your happiness I dont want you hurt
If anyone trys to hurt you I dont know what I would do
this pain and anguish will all leave me soon and Im afraid how if anything happened to you I dont know what Im capable of doing
Why?
Dont you see all this the way I do
I see you everyday yet I long for the sight of youre face looking into your eyes
It makes me feel ALIVE!!
I think of you and my feelings all come out at once
Im angry at the fact that Im the one thinking all of these despicable thoughts
Why am putting myself through all of this it will all amount to something in the end but dont know when or where thats gonna be just the thought of touching your hands makes all these feelings of you flood out of my mind
why do I put myself through this torment
only because its all for you
I cant run from these feelings anymore
theyve come upon me in all the confusion and im starting to understand why all this is happening
not for the agony or the pain but for all of you these thoughts are all open now im not afraid anymore
love me
love me
not the gates have opened now the monster is approaching give me love or give me pain its all up to you but I will always love you but why.
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