I use this too much as a real journal but bleh, it's mine so I don't care.
Am not feeling so great right now. Too many family members not liking me, loon g story starting with me not washing up. >_<
Am also feeling uberly ugly and unattractive. I was starting to get a little comfortable with the way I look but now I feel like a pile of s**t with hair thrown on it. As for hair mine is pissing me off. It really does need dying again but I owe Chris £5, My brother a present and Neil a belated one. *sighs* And with my £10 [until job] I feel pretty skint. My roots are really badly getting through and it looks drab, dead and lifeless. Bleh, kinda like my body and my face in particular but I think thats coming onto my next mini rant thing.
I'm not sleeping again. I just can't stay asleep. This is a usual problem for me but it's been badly recently and I'm uber restless around this time of night/moring. I must say I find the transition of night to morning so intreging. o.o;; Might actually go see my GP about this because I have had it for years now. *ponders*
I'm worried about Ross again. He was in a bad mood on msn and added to the whole him having to cope with me breaking down into tears [after UBER day out with Neil and Alex - I felt so social. o.O;] I started blaming myself - as usual. gonk So am worried since he's away the weekend.
My hornones are ********. I believe I am ovulating but this is a sad version of pms and my manic depressions starting to play up and I really don't know what my mind is doing anymore.
Female parental told me that I really need to put effort into my work, though I have all the time so I got snappy in the car. She'd already had a go at me so yeah.
Ok, not feeling much better after this rant but yeah at least I've wrote it all down now which kinda helps.
I want coffee.
The kettle's broken.
T__T
In good news stylie.
I have found shoes me likies muchly! Yes, again.
Clickie: http://attitude.uk.com/moreinfo.asp?id=588FTW&brand=underground&menu=FOOT&page=2&type=
I really wanna go see a band. Don't care what band just wanna go to a gigi and get the whole vibe again. Dx
 HoverCrab · Sat Jul 15, 2006 @ 12:02am · 3 Comments |
