View User's Journal

Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals



I really, just feel, horrable right now. ........I cant help my friends, I just keep getting in everyones way at work. I dont even think my parents care about me anymore. Slwly I also feel like im losing the only "real" friend I had. Time has passed and we have both changed. We do not really know each other anymore. I really dont want to get in her way or hurt her anymore so ill just stay silent unless she doesent want me to. Because I know im getting on her nerves just like my parent, relatives, people I dont know, and other friends. Whenever im in public I always wear a fake smile. But when im alone im a broken mess that no one really knows about. And I have been in this false mood so much I dont even know myself. I am stuck in the prison of my own mind and no one can help. since no one not even myself knows me........ cry

Posted by: Kinky Kawaii Sat Aug 19, 2006 @ 02:37am

Reborn.

User Comments: [5] [add]

[+.Emokth.+]
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Sat Aug 19, 2006 @ 03:03am


	I know how you feel I have feeled that way for a wgile but the best thing to do is keep strong..and act happy for everyones sake...I mean.

Commented on: Sat Aug 19, 2006 @ 04:04am


	crying I do the same thing. I was in love with my best friend, but it was unrequited....We were the best of friends and always have been, but our relationship is slowly deteriorating. It's like she's a different person! sad My parents haven't known anything about my life since I was 9, and we've never had a good relationship. It's always fights and bruises and angry screams with us. I was staying silent and not getting in the way of my exboyfriend. He never said a word back to me. And I've never let anyone that I knew personally, actually know the real me. It's always a face I put on. For everyone. I'm not happy either....I just know I've gotta keep living....even if it is only just to find myself. crying

Honeybun-chan
Community Member

Offline

GlenvarGurl012
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Mon Aug 21, 2006 @ 06:32pm


	i'm sorry u feel that way. i can't really say nething, unless that someday (maybe not today or tomorrow, but soon) this won't b happening and everything will go back to normal.

Commented on: Tue Aug 22, 2006 @ 12:08am


	What I think you should do is talk to your friend.You may just think that she thinks your getting on her nerves.And I know,that even if someone does get on my nerves sometimes,I'd still want to be friends w/ them.I don't know what kinda personality your friend has,but if it's the type to listen,then it might be easier than expected.I'm not even going to say anything about the parent thing,because if I had good enough advice,I would've already tried it w/ my parents >.>

K U R E N A I
Community Member

Offline

rozo_no_yami
Community Member

Offline

Commented on: Wed Nov 15, 2006 @ 12:58am


	Are you stupid? Stop having a negative mind! I don't know excatly as you feel but let me tell you, I know that I get in my friends way. I get in everybody's way. But that's what it takes to live. If we stayed out of everybodys way then we would have a peaceful world. But we are stupid humans and we get in everybody's way. And don't not be yourself! If you need to yell, yell. If you need to cry, cry. If you want to laugh, laugh. Just be yourself. (I should use that as a quote) Just please, I really don't know what your going through with your parents so I can't even think to try and tell you what to do. But I do know what it is like to not be myself and to be in people's way. Neither is fun, but the one you can change is to be yourself. Sorry if this makes you angry

User Comments: [5] [add]

Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals