I'm a nutcase. Its pretty funny too. Lately I can't seem to hold anything back. The slightest annoyance sets me off and I do things I don't like doing. Maybe its because I've been around people so much this week. Everyday I've been out, and everyday I have been around people for long periods of time. I haven't been able to do my homework, or spend time online.
To be honest, too much of a good thing is really starting to get to me. Raymond wants to go out and be with friends all the ******** time, when all I want to do is spend a day with him, like we used to do. He wanted to spend the night at Jayetta's house for the third night in a row. I couldn't take that again. I like spending the night at someone's house, but not all the time, or night after night after night. Its just too much for me to handle.
I don't know, things have been so weird lately. Though luckily Raymond and I have patched things up somewhat. We haven't been in a fight yet and its been almost 24 hours. And hes getting closer to me again, which really makes me feel more at ease. But the talk of finding another girlfriend to really test feelings is still in the air.
Some of you might be asking yourself right now, "What the ******** are you talking about?" Well, its kinda complicated. You see, Raymond and I have never had any other realationships other than the one we have now. And we want to expirence at least one more before (and who knows what may happen) we get married. We both love eachother, yet we fight like a married couple anyway. x_x And to make things even weirder, I have never had a guy like me in real life, yes, Raymond started out as an online boyfriend, so these things DO happen.
Yeah, if I get married with him and have kids they'll eventually ask "Where'd you and daddy meet?" I'd probably tell them the truth, I doubt they'll believe me.
But thats all in the far possible future.
Yeesh...well, I guess you could say I'm doing better. Lets just hope this keeps up. Besides tomorrow is our anniversary. So I pray things work out.
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