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Another grey Day, Void.
Actually, today was pretty good. I woke up late, ate some fruit loops, took a long bath, and accidently cut myself while shaving. Kinda strange, it was, because of the way that the blood kept flowing and flowing, yet it was such a small, small cut. I've never been much of a bleeder. Trust me, when I want to bleed (like when I need my own blood for art- don't ask, Void. Like you ever do) I can't, yet when I'm wearing my pure white suits, there it goes, frickin' Old Faithful pumping as hard as she can... They call that Irony, don't they? Or do they. I don't know.
My counselor (trust me, I need the mental help, that I do) told me to focus on my emotions, on what I'm feeling, because it seems that I've lost what I know. I thought a lot on that today, while the sky sprinkled us, and the plants breathed. And I realized that... I didn't realize anything. I'm still a fool- fools learn by their own mistakes, through experience. Wise men are supposed to learn by what other people do. Does it make sense? no, we live in a dada world. We bought videogames today at Rhino, the used videogame store. I wanted to get something for my super nintendo (on loan from a small cousin of mine- he only likes new games.) but I couldn't find anything that I wanted. So we bought games for everything else.
Yet I still don't know how to feel. Not really. Am I supposed to have a feeling about every little thing? Or am I supposed to feel so unattached, so distant from everyone and everything? Probably it's supposed to be some kind of freakin' weird balance. Everything in life is about balance. Like I care.
Yet... I'm still so far away, and I don't know where I'm going. Where am I going?
Tell me, Void, and I'll love you forever.
Bob the Checkout Guy · Sun Sep 03, 2006 @ 01:47am · 0 Comments |
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