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I just realized how old i am, how many years have went by, and whats happen since i was 6.

Damn, it fells like forever ago, My mother leaving to go live in England, me going there, my friends betraying me for a better repution(sp), all but one who stayed with me. She was the only one who could understand me, and my childish ways. i was only seven at the time, being intersted in those little kid things, like..... those weird things i can't remember.

I still remember how i had found a four leaf colver one day, while waiting for gym to end. They say that your lucky gets better, but mine got worse.

A prep (not to the nice preps that are cool as my cousin would say....) came up to us and nearly took away my one and only friend. She said that she wouldn't go and that was the happest day of my life. i'll never forget that friend. and my friends now.

But.......

After awhile, some kid decided to look for this kid. He found me, some how knowing that the kid he was looking for, was behind me. Not knowing, he took my arm, and swung me into a brick wall. From there, i remember that i was taking in by my friend, and was placed in a chair, being tooking care of. My mother walked in,taking me to the doctor. I didn't know how big the cut was, but all i knew was that it was bloody.

After a few months, i was sent home to america. It was the day of my 8th birthday, when my dad woke me up and asked if i wanted to go back to England. i repiled no, knowing what would happen. I would have been sent to an a grade 2 years a head of what i'm suppose to be at, and kids would pick on me for my american acsent(sp).

People ask if i miss my mother.
I hate that question.
Everytime some one asks, I get pissed. I hated my mother. She caused my family to get angry at eachother and start fighting. ALso my family told me that she got really wasted/drunk (whatever you want to call it) she would turn on us and start to abuse my dad and my older sister.

i have gotten over it though, forgeting about the past, and not caring about it anymore.

>.> <.< i think i need to calm down.