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Hey today when I was asleep it was about 4:00 in the morning. I heard what sounded like a talkshow radio being on. But when I listened in closer I noticed that it was my mom and her boyfriend arguing. It was so loud that I couldn't sleep. For the rest of the night, their words went deep into my head and when it was finally over her boyfriend jumped in the car now late for work and drove off. I don't think they knew I heard them but i always felt like he was getting with her for the money. My mom is a succesful real estate agent, and she met him when she was working out. And he told her that/
"If I had the chance to I would never have said hey to you that day" and now my mother is in a financial fix. We bought a nice house that was about $599,000 ( most of it from my moms pocket) and now she can't even afford to put me into any after-school programs. Today was awful from the time I woke up all the way through school. Today i really feel like taking my own life. School isn't going well, my investments class they were ignoring me and not letting me help in the assignment though i'm providing the stuff for most of the grade. Math is getting worse. And my mother won't let me participate in journalism like she promised all because her boyfriend says that he doesn't want me to and that it would have been too time consuming. I truly feel low today so I've tried to avoid any contact I wish my twin could see this at least she would have known what to do, or made me feel better or even my friend Ya-Ya anyone who could have understood what i was going through would have been great, truly cry