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I don't get it.
I've been depressed lately.
I haven't been depressed like this for about 2 years.
I hate being depressed, it's a horrid feeling.
I don't exactly know why either.
Is it because I feel alone?

Today I have been contemplating a bit. I've been wondering why I've been having these sudden depressed outbursts. Sure, I guess you could say they're hormones. I am young after all. Oh, the teenage angst! Yet, it hasn't really affected me for two years. Is this normal?

Oh mans, I forgot what I wanted to write down. I had it all worked out during my thinking time in the shower. X_x...
Oh well, I'll just write down some random stuff. I need to vent. Hopefully it'll help my mood along with this weekend.

To who ever might be reading this now, I will rarely use my friend's names in my journal. I'll either refer to them as "He, she, her, him, etc." or by their nicknames. The * will indicate them as my friend.

You know, this journal thing is kinda spiffy. I can vent on here. I wont be bothering anyone, I don't really have to worry about holding it up inside. The only person I ever really talk to about my problems is Winter Fresh*, but even I keep a lot of my secrets from him to. I've figured out that I'm not a very open person as some people might think I am. Where I open a door, another closes. I don't like to trouble my friends with my problems, I don't like to have them hear my sad little sob story. I mean really, they don't want to hear it, so they don't have to. Even if they asked I'd probably give scarce details and change the subject quickly. I've been like this for a long time. X___x...

Yeah, I deleted all I wrote about the guy I liked. I realized I don't want my friends to read this and go "OMG!!11one1!one!!".

Love is joy, and love is pain.
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