Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

Once upon a time, I could enjoy the sweet feel of the icy winds upon my breast, but now I shudder at the mere thought of it. I suppose it's because I'm so loveless. Not that it matters. I have decided, I'm going to give him up. No sense in waiting on someone who doesn't want what you have to offer meh? Besides there is someone that I like just a bit better who always makes me feel so good about myself. *sigh* But I KNOW he doesn't think of me that way, so I should probabbly not think of him that way either, but I can't help but think that way sometimes you know? It's just the clock work of the stupid, pathetic heart. If I could have my choice... I would just rip my heart out and give it to the guy I am having some feelings for currently. Unfortunately, if I did that, I would die and the only way we could celebrate our togetherness would be in the grave and if he were a necrophelliac, but I don't think that would be the case. xd

But that person will be my little secret. scream (Well two of my closest friends will know. sweatdrop ) I just don't want to scare him away... as I always do.

Well I have also decided that I am not going to Waco on Saturday, but I am in fact going to go to my friend's birthday party instead. I mean, Waco will be so pointless without someone to be there with you, besides it's going to be like an icebox up there anyway. I'd rather be in a nice warm home than outside freezing my tits off. Though I have decided not to go to Waco, I still have a busy schedule with Rehearsal, The People to People Meeting, College Night, College Infomation night etc. coming up. I won't be free until about November 18th I believe. Or whenever our last performance is... stare

Now the actual school day was boring... all I did was take Jeff's net top. (Which he's never getting back twisted ) I look sexier in it anyway and I am quite sure he will agree. xd

And of course there was rehearsal... which included about five minutes or so of mindless chatter before we actually started doing stuff. stare But meh, it was still fun!

Ranting about Theatre (IN A GOOD WAY):

One can notice that theatre students that are actually serious about performing and stuff are very literate, non-retards! blaugh I suppose that is why I love theatre so much. I can hold a conversation that doesn't involve slang and such. eek Plus, the theatre geeks make up a very small population, which makes us special.

End Rant!

And that is all for today aside from a random belly rub I got. xp

heart always,
-Anthy

Current Song: "Sleepless Beauty"- Nittle Grasper
Current Mood: Bleckish
Current Personality: All of the others are taking a nap, so Athena has taken a visit. blaugh

"Sleepless Beauty"- Nittle Grasper

I've been charmed by your eyes from far away; wake up and wait for me
Call out and break the night's barricade; the crowd comes out of the reflection

(there is no way out) if you plan to endure the impact
(until it collapses) a projected lie

Smile as you become reborn and paint your whole body
See the world suddenly burning up miraculously as we met by chance

I see you haven't changed at all; the petals scatter from the flower
Polish the gem in your hand everyday so it will build up and start over

(your cold hand) becauase of thorns shed through weariness
(a doused flame) the smoke carries on

Now tell me where the light is, sketch it as it dances vividly
Guided words overflow and come out in times of fear

(cry for a way out) (it crumbles down)

Smile as you become reborn and paint your whole body
See the world suddenly burning up miraculously as we met by chance

Now tell me where the light is, sketch it as it dances vividly
Guided words overflow and come out in times of fear

(hold me gently, catch me forever, do more until my heart breaks down)