Well I'm no expert..(does anyone even read these? Oo) The guy i really like, enven though i can't like him (reason), for some reason doesn't know I'm there. Now i know how all thoes gilrs in the movies are all like "he can't notice me ooohhh how saddining" but the thing they all had in common was they were figured and had it going for them. ugh all the weird guys like me stare +has a bat+ but you know thats one of the things that brought me down..my appearance. People say it's all whats inside but you know what you can't meet the inside until you like the out... and thats just how society is today. I'm gona go to one of thoes island things where FhAT girls are considered "hot"...yeah...but why am I intersted with boys. (straight) DANM HUMAN BODY THINGY!!!! +falls+ ah my squigly spooch!!! >O<.
urrrrrrrggghhhhh.......Why am i not happy am i selfish? Is that just who I am. So wear black...it calms...but then gives me a weird feeling of insecurity so i kinda wana wear it but then again no..not pink..it's ok if worne right. +sigh+ geezzz if your still reading this go get a life....._-_;; For some reason i like the feeling of sadness sometimes but then it hurts..but maybe becasue it's been hurt for so long i got used to it.....but it changed after thr 5th grade when my prayers were answered by God..and I thank him forever...yeah it was more of a black angel..but black white or green, it was such a nice angel.....a troublemaking funny, happy, full of life angel. The angel hurt me and i still loved it not matter what. Without that angel I'd be dead now. And i guess in some way I was their angel and helped saven them. We were so opisite and still are...but...we got along so well. I told then (not to long ago) that I was lonely...They looked at me and said "your not lonely" And they were right i have my family that loves me oh so much, friends that would actually stand up for me when i need it, and my health...so what more do i want? I don't even know..but just seeing my family friends and basicly anyone living life like they would die tommorow make me happy (not the dieing part just having fun) or when you walk by a stanger and smile at them and they smile back...it's like getting an A+ in science......so i guess thats all and now for the people who read..you get a k00kie spelled with a K ^-^
Song i was listening to when i wrote this
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