School has sucked away my life this week and every week except the first week of school. I have almost nothing left. I have no reserves of energy left in me, nor kindness nor compassion nor anything that would allow me to function normally. I am highly irratable, I wont even bother to explain why, I just need some understanding I think. Maybe its to be noticed, hell I dont know. All I know is that I am hella tired and severely need a break. I honestly dont even know why Im typing here when I could be sleeping somewhere.
My sister said she would take me out soon which is great, I enjoy spending time with her and havent gotten to do it much at all. Also, my friend said that we could hang sometime next week, I just need to pick the day, which is great because we havent hung around or even really talked to each other in months. Time just seems to fly by doesnt it? Oh well, nothing we can do to stop it.....
No one will care about this little bit but I had two tests today. There wern't as many questions I didnt know (on either of them) as I thought there would be but I know I failed them both miserably, because thats just the way things go for me. No matter how much or how little I study, I still dont do well. Honestly I have no explaination as to why this occurs all the time, I just know that it does and it sucks.
Im not sure I have much else to say here really. I know the whole 'things will get better' statement, it just doesnt seem like it from my P.O.V. yanno? I dont want anyone to take this journal entry the wrong way or anything, Im not depressed (right now as I sit here writing this, typing this...whatever) I think that I am just complaining. Now all of this is why I am easily irritable right now, not whats wrong/ the matter with me or anything. Just, nevermind, disreguard this entire journal entry as plain old boo-hoo'ing or some mindless chatter of the like.
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