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the beginning 1.2

phew, today was a hard day. first of all, i spoke to the high priestess, she really meant i should follow my inner feelings and go traveling around. so i started arranging my stuff. i had to clean my room and find someone who will care about it. while i was tidying up, i found lots of things i had almost forgotten. like the old marbles i used to play with , when i was y child. or the best friends bracelet my late friend made for me. i had looked for it for ages but i couldnt find it. so i put it into my very private storage bag. i gave back my old borrowed novices robes from the nunnary and said goodbye to most of my old friends. i was very close to tears when i said goodbye to the nuns , becuase they were all so kind to me, they rised me and were all kind of mothers or aunts to me. i really dont know where my journey will lead me and i dont know if i will ever return.....
hah... the memories.....
but let me continue... i sold almost everything of my small room, almost everythng.
i had to buy new clothes as you may guess and, since i ever lived in the nunnary i never had to care for these things. the nuns allowed me to keep my newest robe so that i didnt need to spend all my money on clothes.
when i had arranged all these things i came to the hardest part.
saying goodbye to my "extern" friends. those who didnt live in the nunnary.
this was the point i really had to cry. i mean, who would not?
you cannot just go and leave evryone whom you loved and shared all your enfancy memories so easily behind! the fun we had, the trouble we got in!
i really have to say, this was one of my hardest days till now. and i wish no one ever to do the same. its really not a comforting feeling.
but i have some things that will always keep them present and in my mind. not only memories.
so far. today ill sleep the last time in my now very empty room.
good night.