a very good friend
we knew eachother for a very long time...
he told me he liked me
i thought it was sweet
we still acted like friends
but it was too good to be true
highschool came along and he had other friends of course
but these friends became best friends
closer than me
i got jealous
something i truly regret
for when i told him...
we started to fight
over our feelings
and reasons
and stupid things
i thought this must end soon...
and it did
not the fighting
but the friendship...
the girl i was jealous over became his girlfriend
i got more jealous
and wanted to tell him...
but they were so close and we...so far away
we almost completely stopped talking
even when i tried to start a conversation
he pushed me away
so i forgot all about him
deleted him from my yahoo and gaia friends lists
i thought it would help not to see him come online
because it hurt every time i saw him with her
it helped a little but now and again
i remember when we talked...
laughed...
and almost everything
reminded me of him
even in my dreams
he is walking by me
not knowing or caring i'm there
this is a true story
and now as i write this
i'm still trying to forget he's there
~*<3*~
i've lost one of my best friends
and he doesn't know
how bad it hurts me
i want to get mad
once or twice i have
but not at him
at myself for not letting go
i could never get mad at him
i just want him back...
(( ^this is by [.Pant.Devil.] ))
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