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evil wtf? im so pissed that i can take a lizard and torture it by pulling all of its limbs off and dangling a fly in front of it just out of its reach while pouring lighter fluid on it and lighting a match waiting to watch it burn alive stressed sounds extremely cruel doesnt it? ya well imagine i woulda said a person mad ******** im mad at the whole ******** world burning_eyes i hate everyone right now and most of all myself. i dont wanna ******** hafta go thru the bullshit society presents to me every ******** day of my insignificant life. the only reason i think i should be living atm is so my kids dont grow up without a mom stressed i think it would be worse for them to see me have a mental breakdown, but then again, i think they have seen me go thru one already stare im ******** tired of having to deal with everything myself . like i sed b4, i cant say what i want or do what i want stressed i feel like im locked up inside a presapuss (got this from titanic) with no way out eek maybe i feel like the darkness has overcome all of the kindness that remained in my heart. i ******** wanna scream scream i wanna take everyone in my fam and ******** duct tape their mouths shut and tie thier hands and feet up like they were hostages and tell them wtf is on my mind mad that way id have no ******** interruptions. I ******** HATE INTERRUPTIONS! evil it means ur not being listened to or that ur incorrect. in my case, not being listened to mad that ******** pisses me off stare what the ******** did i do to be feeling this god damn crappy huh? i do everything in the world for my ******** family and i get no ******** appreciation burning_eyes i get no say in anything anymore. its like they dont wanna understand that if it wasnt for me and my ex, there would be NO HOUSE. there would be NO FOOD. there would be NO ELECTRICITY. what the ********? do we really need to lose the house so they will kno who the ******** is the adult here? eek do they really wanna be homeless living under a bridge in downtown miami. i hear its kinda crowded there mad they think i NEED them and therefore treat me like i was a child like in the past where i had nowhere to go and no one to take care of my kids. ******** that when my divorce goes thru i can pay $8 a week for my kids to go to a daycare. my grandmother will be so depressed when i take the kids away neutral do i wanna do that? no. but i will to prove a point. i dont really need anyone and that includes husband, bf, family and friends stressed i have done most of the things in life myself and it saddens me to say so. i go thru s**t without telling anyone. i didnt tell anyone about my miscarriage for months after it happened stare i can deal with it myself and i can prove it. i dont like the person i have become and maybe i need to be alone to calm my soul and let me be the person i wanna be again. maybe i need to take a vacation from EVERYONE and that includes my bf. i been getting pissed at him too for miniscule s**t and its not fair to him. we said we were gonna take it slow....ya uh-huh real slow stare its like nuthing ever happened. i dont kno whether to ******** end my life or see if it can get any better. im too chicken s**t for that so dont think ima go ******** kill myself but its more to describe the feeling im going thru emo the one thing thats scary about it is that what if it gets worse. ppl dont tend to look on the dark side of things....they always "look on the bright side". look mother ********, there is no bright side to a black hole is there? only ******** darkness and emptiness. so dont gimme any bull s**t about a bright side talk2hand whatever i ******** hate everyone and im not gonna pretend to be in a good mood when im not. if i ******** offended sumone, i dont give a ******** mad ******** it! ******** everything and ******** the world, ******** the president, ******** my family and ******** u! i dont give a ******** if u think im crazy! scream scream scream scream scream
...princess that doesnt give a ********...
evil peaches evil
 princess peachey · Tue Nov 28, 2006 @ 09:54pm · 0 Comments |
