Needy
Listening to: Disney's Mulan- Reflections
Entry:
Today has been really weird since I woke up. I keep hoping Eric doesn't have school, and I can just cuddle with him. Does this always happen to other people? Have you ever really needed to be with your special someone? To told them so close, that you could just absorb them into you? Sarah, you have issues I know.. sweatdrop
At the same time, the sleeping Eric scares me. "Sleeping Eric" makes me feel like I did something wrong. That I'm not good enough to even be near him. I want so scream, yell, kick him. Do something to make it stop hurting so much. Like that's going to happen.
I don't know what to do. By any reason, "Sleeping Eric" is considered Eric's true self. I know that's not true, but I don't know sometimes. Maybe I'm just being silly. I want so much for everything to work out, that I fear Eric won't love me after I have Koei... I need really good advice...
