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Ugh......................well theres dis guy i lik in skool. but u see part of da reason i lik him is b'cuz he reminds me of sum1 i used 2 lik in ma old skool and i still kinda lik him now. I dont wat 2 do... i'm sooo confuzed wit ma self. i lik him 4 other reasons too lik the way smiles and laughs. the way he acts silly and how he always make me smile wen i have a bad day and he doesnt kno it. ma friends at skool dont rlly get it, da whole love story thing but they do kno i lik him, its not enough though. ma heart kinda aches rite now....i'm torn between loving da person used to lik and gettin over it and try too love sum1 else for a change. i used to cry ma self to sleep..... all ma heart aches. my friends were there 2 help me, they gave me laughter and warmth..... but wen it wuz over 'n' dey had 2 leave da pain would c** bak. ugh......... love is a painful emotion filled wit regret, shame, grief, 'n' mayb sum hatred.......... but wen i see his face , the sun1 jus for me, i feel othewise. i feel warmth, joy, laughter, thoughts, a bittersweet feeling that cant b replaced. da way i feel 'bout him and da one i used to lik [or even love] r strong, precious and irreplacable. wen i'd cry, i would pray for an angel that would save me frum dis heart ache.... and mayb dat angel hasnt came yet............. or has it, i jus cant see him