Hey there. I've been going through a lot of crap lately, and I took a weekend hiatus from Gaia because my life was just uber crappy for a while. Here's the lowdown on some of the things that have been going on:
My grandfather died November 17th. He was my maternal grandfather, and the last one I had left (my paternal one passed away when I was 10). When I lost my paternal grandfather, I went through a depression that lasted for about 2-3 years. I attended counseling and took anti-depressants, and around 8th or 9th grade, they said I was pretty much cured and discontinued my counseling and medication. I've been in counseling off and on over the years as well, but I've never really felt that I've needed one until now. So much is going on in my life right now that I really need to seek professional help about it all.
My job is the absolute pits. I work for Wal-Mart, and it's the holiday season, so needless to say, it's the absolute suxor right now. This past Friday, I put in my 2-weeks notice, but then after several discussions with my husband and my parents, I decided that it would be dangerous for our financial situation for me to quit right now. So, I've been forced to grin and bear it, whether I want to or not, because it'll make things easier. Just about everyone is miserable with their job, but they still bite the bullet.
Marriage is not all sex and love notes. ( xd ) It's a big adjustment, and unless it is pursued by those that are willing to work together and who are truly passionate about making it work, 90% of the time it's going to fail. My husband and I have been fighting a lot lately--A LOT. Sadly, we fight over the dumbest things, and the whole time, I don't want to even be arguing with him, but at the same time he says stuff that just ticks me off. stressed scream
Just about everyday for a while now, I've felt like crying at some point. I've been really unhappy with how my life has been, and it got to the point that I didn't even feel like living for a while. After a heartfelt discussion with my parents yesterday, though, I really feel like things are going to get better. They said that one of our key problems is that we still need to go on dates, which we haven't done in over 2 months. Wendell and I are together everyday, but we don't really spend that much time together--most of the time we're in separate rooms, even, doing our own things for hours on end. We have a date set for the Saturday after my exams. heart
It was brought to my attention that I'm slightly (okay, I'm being modest, majorly) addicted to Gaia, hence my hiatus for a while. More than anything, I'm just so happy that I have people other than my siblings that I can talk with about Harvest Moon, because there aren't too many Moonys around here. sweatdrop
Anyways, that's all that's been bothering me lately, but it's going to get better, I promise. ^_^ I just have to keep my chin up and try to smile. I'm stronger than some depression. 3nodding I'll survive...somehow.
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