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Mood: Extrememly pissed and bitter.

Okay, so. I love the holidays. It's my favouritefavouritefavourite time of year.

But golly does it really know how to piss me off. More like people in it.

I see and hear people complainging that they don't get that iPod or Digital Camera or game system or what have you for X-Mas and it just grates my cheese. I don't even get to celebrate Chirstmas this year! Which is ironic, because even though I'm Jewish, I usually do celebrate Christmas and I love it. <3 Just the tree, the lights. I don't observe religiously, and all my friends disagree that we're too old to ask for presents. I think they take for granted actually having a functioning family.

My dad's the one who I'd celebrate with, since he's Catholic, but I haven't spoken to him in weeks. I don't even know what I did, but for some reason he expects me to apoligize. Well, no matter how badle I want to see him for the holidays I refuse to aploigize for something I didn't do. He won't even call me or my sister until we apoligize, which is totally assanine and stubbourn. He needs to learn how to be a father, I think. I don't think anyone ever told him how to.

And now my one friend keeps trying to get my to have a Christmas party, and when I politely reminded him that I don't celebrate, he just nagged me about having a "holiday party". It really doesn't help that he's always trying to push the bible on me. LOOKIT THAT! NO CAPITALIZATION! >>

And lately everyone's just pissing me off, but nobody ever notices 'cause I'm always so emotionless....not emotionless, per se, but always the same emotion. And my stupid friends don't realize that, yes, I do have feelings! And when you complain about your lives, it makes me angry! Because there are kids that have way worse lives than we do. So shut yer mouths! BUTINEVERGETTOCOMPLAINSOI'MDOINGITNOW! D:<

My mother won't let me put up a tree in my house...jeez, I don't want presents or to convert or have a holy baby or whatever X-mas is about...I just want a ******** tree! That's all I ask for!!

So I'm bitter that my relationship with my father is crap, my friends can't relate, and that while people complain about not getting expensive presents, I don't even get to celebrate Christmas!

I don't want replies saying "Oh, I relate!" or "I do so understand"! NO. SHUT.

I'm allowed to be in a bad mood, for once, without you trying to help. LEAVE ME BE!!! DDDDDDDDDDDDDD:<

In other news, it finally snowed here. Yay. heart

So have Happy Holidays, whores! D:<

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