Seems like all I do now-a-days is cry… emo
Multiple reasons, but mainly one: I miss him so much.
I know it’s my fault but… I don’t want to blame myself for it.
That would only make me feel even worse.
I keep asking these questions over and over again…
Does he love me? Does he miss me as much as I miss him?
Does he think about me? Does he still care about me?
Yet, no matter how much I ask, I get no answers.
Sometimes, I really want to know…
Others, I don’t. I’m afraid they might not be what I expected and break my heart even more… emo
God, help me please. I don’t know what to do with myself.
I know I have to move on but it seems I can’t. I’ve tried so hard and I just… can’t.
Why? Why do I have to cry for someone I haven’t even met in person?
I can’t even count how many times my heart has been broken by someone… I didn’t care. I moved on overnight.
I would tell myself: They’re jerks, stop liking them. And as if by magic… I would get over them.
I promised my Grandma I would never cry for a guy. That it was stupid and that instead I would tell them what they’re missing.
I broke that promise… I’ve never cried so much for anyone in my life… not even for my Grandpa or dog when they died. emo
Great!!! I’m crying again!!! Can’t I just stop crying for one ******** minute?!
I miss my Grandpa. He was the nicest person I’ve met. I wish I could see him again. I remember when we played cards together. When he would make up riddles for me to figure out. emo
And my puppy. Lulu… last time I saw her, was when I moved here. I remember hugging her so tight and saying: Don’t worry I’ll see you again. To think I won’t see her again breaks my heart. emo
I can’t get over anything I guess. Not over a guy, not over death, not over a friend.
I just hope I stop soon… I don’t like crying. cry
Oh and to top all of that my best friends are not talking to each other. God, my misery keeps adding up... emo
You guys are probably really tired of me blabbering on about this but… if you are then why are you reading my journal?
I just want someplace to write how I feel without my parents reading it…
 Annabella Goddess Of Ice · Wed Jan 03, 2007 @ 03:23am · 0 Comments |
