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I want to go somewhere today, but it seems that most people don't feel like doing much. I hate staying home on the weekdays, there is nothing to do, and I get this feeling in the pit of my stomach. Its hopelessness.

I'm still having mixed emotions. I still care about Raymond, but he blocked me from his life and shut me out completely. So why should I still care? There is a fine line between love and hate and I am right in the middle.

It still hasn't completely sunken in yet. It feels like we're having a really long fight. And that sometime soon we'll be back together again. But of course that is impossible. Even having an online relationship may seem pretty bleak.

Hes always mad at me. And I hate it. It hurts knowing hes angry with me all the time. How can someone just turn so angry when he is always so kind to me?

I just want it all to stop honestly. He needs to get what is coming to him.

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