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Today after reading a letter from a friend.My mind was shocked by a loved one who was dead cry .It started when school was over.I was with Aki(my girlfriend's name)going to the mall to meet friends at the food court.After shoping around for are swimwear.Me and the guys talk about summer.When Nishizawa(her brother) surprisely asked"You and Aki going to the beach...?"Surprise at the question.I answer"How did you know about that?!Staring and then smiling at me"So you are taking my sister on a date"Embarassed i looked away wondering what Aki was going to wear at the beach.My mind thinking of past time:the first day i meet her,the day i ask her out.I couldn't wait!Around the night of that day.I was watching the news.Something on t.v. alienate me.''Breaking News''Reports reads that a man named Nrawaka(Killer) riding his car at about 160 per min passing the speed limit.Ran-over a middle schooler.(Right they're i hoped is wasn't anyone i known).Than i heared her name."By the name of Aki Hitomi"When i heared Aki's name on t.v.I was at peril.I just couldn't bear with that."The only one who saw this is this panda name Snoozer founded at the park.If you are the owner of this panda please pick him up around 4572 Tangoro street".Anguish from the news,my love for Aki was dashing me to Nishizawa's kocking on the door.I saw her family in tears.Th same with Nishizawa.Aki's mom hold me in her arms suffering from the report.All i heared was crying.Geting Nishizawa to stand.I sayed with peril in my eyes trying to hold back my tears."Let's go to the park.That's where your sister was found right?"Without being decisive we ran to the park with the elusive news in are minds.Running in to the nightsky we both hoped that it really didn't happen,hoped that the news lied,hoped that Aki was alive.As soon as we could we made it to the park.We started to look for Snoozer.The only thing we known at the time was they reported Snoozer saw it all.So looked around for hours to find him.It was already past midnight tears were blocking my sights untill i stoped,looked around the street and saw what i never wanted to see.Blood geting wash away and someone with a bucket.Before i yelled for Nishizawa i walk to the person washing the blood.Cautionusly i asked''What happen here?''Motionless he answer''Didn't you hear little boy.Some girl got killed tonight.Tey say they're taking her to the hospi''
I didn't stay for long.I'd ran back into park.Yelling for Nishizawa of Snoozer.I found them around the tree where i have found Snoozer the first time.Nishizawa looked at me with a gloomy stare.''Any luck?''.I look at him with darkness in my eyes.Tranquilly i answered''Go home take Snoozer with you.Ok?''Nishizawa did what i have told him.After i saw him on his way i started running.Running to see Aki one last time.Dashing to a near hospital.Running into the doors i yelled out her name''AKI!!!!!!!!AKIIIII!!!!!!!!!''I lost air.The nurse walked up to me.''Can i help you?''Saying with worrys in my words''Aki....Hitomi......take me...to her...please?
As i sat down for a second.''Ok.Right this way''I got up and follow the nurse.As we were walking to Aki's room,my heart was suffering from all of this.When we reached her room,my eye burned with fear.Seeing Aki in the room full of machines and wires i couldn't bear seeing her like that,tears filled my eyes i couldn't hold back.Just then a hand was placed on my head.Looking up i saw the doctor.''It's will be all right son she's getting the best help we got.I'd called them already just let us handle it.Ok?''I left the room without question.closing the door.Tears drop from my eyes i got away from the from the door and sat next to it.Waiting for the news.Time has passed it already morning.Aki's mother was in the waiting room,her farther was outside taking a cirgar.I was still by Aki's door.I couldn't move for a second.Just then one of the doctor makes way for the door.His hands cover in blood.I was about to pass out,but stand up.With a little gloom in my words''Is she ok?''The doctor didn't answer.He went to the waiting room answering to Aki's mother.I didn't need to know the answer.It was shown to me.Her mother's tears answered for me.I look inside Aki's room.My eyes widen,The doctor was right.Aki was died.My mind became gnarled.My heart injured by her death i just standed they,crying.Everone came to the graveyard to see Aki's grave they all had few words to say,i was quiet at the time.After she was put in her resting place.I just sat next to Aki's tomestone.Thinking of the times i spent with her knowing in my heart that she'll never be back.Just then i remember something inportant.Summer was coming around.I should have been happy for summer but my eyes sheded tears like the falling snow of winter.Four years has pasted.Life continued on.Aki's family was better and move on.Nishizawa and i always place flowers on Aki's grave.The last four years of summer was a loveless time for me for all my friend had dates and spent thier summer having fun.I'd went to summer school to keep my mind away from my past about summer.One day i was eating on the roof,the wind pick up and something hit my face.It was a letter.Thier was notthing wirten on it.So i open it.What was inside was airplane tickets to the USA.Then something came to me.Aki wanted to go to USA for are summer four years back.My mind undecisive i ran back home to tell my family the news.They grasped with happyness.I told Aki's family about her dream to go.They wanted to stay.Feeling sad i went to Aki's grave with Snoozer.I placed flowers on her grave and sat by the tomestone.Snoozer did the same.''Snoozer...do me a favor.I want you to take care of the Hitomi's and are home untill i return.You will be no longer my pet but Nishizawa's ok?Go now.Snoozer licked me before he left.I left the cold darkness of my heart to say my words to her.''Aki my love i will be gone for a while.I'm going to the USA just like you wanted us to be.I will return to tell you about my life in the US.So please wait for me.''Just then rain fell on me i looked up.''Are you crying for me...Aki?''I got up and walk away.I looked back the flowers were gone.I smiled and ran for home to pack.One summer later everthing is ok.I tried asking someone on gaia to be my girlfriend,but i got turned down.My heart race to that time of her death.I tried in life but i didn't learn that much english yet.Then someone ask me if i had a love one.That's what made me write about my loveless past.I will try to move on.Intill i find that someone to love.My heart will always remember Aki as my first love.

[Thanks for reading.To the people who read this i have to say something.Never lose anyone close to you.For you may not see they lovely face for long.Thank you.]

I want to thank Pinkrockersrule and Emo_girl03 for giving the friendship and kindness i ones had. crying Thank you friends. crying

Please tell people to read this.It might help and please add your comments about it.I'd like to know what you think about my past.Thank you.