Anymore
I know you couldn't care less anymore.
It's not like we're friends,
I know you hate me,
I know you're not sorry.
There's no use in lying anymore.
Just because we live far away,
Doesn’t mean I am not real.
I am just a reality you wish would go away,
I know I am, there's no point in lying anymore.
I don't know what happened with you anymore,
And I know you'll never tell.
I know because you are a reality that I knew,
Or at least one I thought I knew…
Its not familiar anymore.
Heartbreak without warning,
I know there was something wrong,
I wish I could have fixed it,
But I know I'm not the problem anymore.
I don't know who I am anymore,
I sit hurt and confused like a child,
Not knowing what to do,
Every care of mine slipping away just like that,
And no one seems to be real anymore.
Everything fails now, too many people to name them all,
And I am unsure and insecure,
Because I still sit and wonder
If I deserve anything anymore..
I cant stand this anymore
The people who care about me worry,
The ones who waited for me want you dead,
All the ones who really love me can't stop thinking of me,
And I can't sleep in peace anymore.
I wished I never knew you sometimes.
I wished you would have never cursed me like this.
I wished so much hate on you,
But I can't live like this anymore.
I cannot be depressed anymore.
I cannot hold on forever,
Even if the wound still aches.
I know it means nothing to you,
But I couldn't love you anymore.
Letting go is harder than you think,
Because you weren't in love,
Or it wouldn’t have been so easy for you.
I meant nothing to you anymore.
I can't ever be happy anymore,
Because I can't ever be with the one I love.
I know I should have realized that from the beginning,
And just so you know,
This person who I love isn't you anymore.
I realized I can't hope for his kindness,
I can't hope for his happiness,
I can’t hope to make him happy,
I can't hope for his love anymore.
I won't ever be the same anymore,
And I blame you for your wrongs.
And it's not just you, either,
But I also blame myself for all this too;
I realized I can't be so naive anymore.
I will never fall into this trap again,
I have learn my lesson
And I got hurt along the way,
But that doesn't matter to me anymore.
I couldn't care less anymore,
I should probably tear up the pictures…
The ones I drew when I was so happy,
Ad some when I was insecure…
But its not there anymore.
And I know you're glad
But ill always keep the one showing what you did to me,
You carved into my heart:
"Time to Never Hold Our Love" but the vision isn't clear anymore.
If I could say one thing anymore,
It wouldn't be "I hate you" or "I don't forgive you,"
Though, in a way, they're true.
I think I would say "Thank you,
I don’t have to put up with people like you anymore.
I know what to look for now
And I know where it goes to far.
So when I smile at the one I love,
The three words will not escape in vain anymore.”
(Confusion, heartache, and just moving on... probably the most emo poem I’ve ever written. Ha-ha… the story behind this is that the guy i fell in love with cheated on me with a blonde whore, and broke my heart, and was too p***y to call me to tell me anything anymore. now he's just an immature kid and i cant believe i ever loved. this was written in heartache, so its quite emo. forgive me. xD )
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