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i'm thinking about maybe leaving gaia for good...
lately i've just been feeling overwhelmed with my life...
with everything thats being shot at me...
i'm stressed out...
i'm going through a depression once again...
i've started cutting again after not doing it for almost two years...
and i feel like its going to get worse...
i don't know what to do
nothing really makes me smile anymore...
i hate it
when i laugh or smile 80% of the time its fake.
the last time i was smilling was when i talked to Steven on the phone. i missed talking to him
and i actually got to see him on cam which was so great.
i wish he lived closer. i wish we could hang out it would be so fun
of course i'd have to keep him from tickling me neutral
that the one nice thing about this site... i met three people who are the most amazing people in my life...
Steven of course... Adam...and Chris.
they're all very different but actually show they care.
i wish there where more people like them
seem like i'm going to have to do some travelling *nods*
calgary, Colorado, and NB
i hope when i do have enough money they will still be talking to me...
i guess time will tell...
but where to go first...thats hard to decide...