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My life has ended.... and I'm dead serious
Today my best friend, and my father figure has died, his name was Dan Brown and he was the nicest and most kindest man I have ever met. He helped me and encouraged me to go the extra mile and treated me as his own daughter. Before people would ask him "is that your Daughter" and he would simply reply "no, that is Cathie's daughter, but that is my kid." I felt so safe and loved when I was with him, like nobody could say anything or hurt me, and if they did they had to face him. I never wanted anything bad to happen to him, and I accepted him into my family. Going to the movies, going bowling, hanging out at places, we did just about everything. He had even gave me my first dog, Piper. I loved Piper so much but we had to get rid of her, I never got to say good bye to her and there went my only friend, my dog. Last time I saw Dan wasn't to long ago, he had taken me, Adam, and my mother to Luigi's for dinner. Dan let me get the fish special and spoiled me to death. Mom told me that he loved me very much and that he always talked about how he was so proud of me. I did my best to be the kid he always wanted and be myself and I succeeded. But since his death I feel like I could have been more and tried harder. He and I talked about how I was going to be something important when I grew up, and ever since I went to lake View we talked about how I might be a engineer or an arcitect. But now that he is gone I feel like there is no reason to do anything, I don't want to go to school, I don't want friends, I don't even want to wake up if I fall asleep. When I was told he was dead, I wanted it to be a dream, a horrible nightmare that I would wake up from and then call him and tell him about it while we laughed together. Nothing is goignt o be the same and I feel like I lost apart of myself. I still feel like I'm dreaming, like I'm stuck in a hell and can't get out. How I wish someone knew how horrible I feel and how desperatly I need someone to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be ok, even things aren't.
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