I've had a day off,
I've yet to get off,
It's all pretty much gone to Hell.
I'd look to my morals,
But those erupt in quarrels.
Please for the life of me,
Lay the sun to ease.
3:52 P.M.
I've yet to get off,
It's all pretty much gone to Hell.
I'd look to my morals,
But those erupt in quarrels.
Please for the life of me,
Lay the sun to ease.
3:52 P.M.
All right, a day off, that's all I needed to wallow in self agony! I know, normally I just go 'emo' and start cutting my wrists this way and that, wait... I don't cut, I burn! XD Or used to at least. Well, since I got tired of people nagging me I'm putting to rest. That doesn't change the situation though. Today I got a chance to see just how much Valentine's has been working its way into the hormonal systems of the youth. -.-; Infesting like some parasite, the mind and body used as incubators! o-o Okay... Maybe I AM pissed that I'm the only one in my group that doesn't have that 'special someone'. I don't know why though! I've always been alone on Valentine's Day so I don't see why it should bother me now!
This is how it works:
1) I like them but they're not gay/lesbian/bi.
2) There's some homophobic fear they have towards me.
3) I'm not cute/good enough.
4) They're spoken for.
5) 'I used to be gay, but I'm not anymore'.
OR my personal fave
6) They're too young for me and I don't want people thinking I'm a ***** even though I like 'em young! ^-^;;
2) There's some homophobic fear they have towards me.
3) I'm not cute/good enough.
4) They're spoken for.
5) 'I used to be gay, but I'm not anymore'.
OR my personal fave
6) They're too young for me and I don't want people thinking I'm a ***** even though I like 'em young! ^-^;;
: Okay, so it seems no matter what I AM bound to be alone for quite sometime, which really I don't mind but sometimes it does make me feverant. I guess what's really setting me off is that all the ones I take devotion to are always being swooped away by some other knight in shining armor.
When I was over at the elementary school dropping off a snack for my little brother I was scoping out some of the kids. Call me a '*****', they're just two years younger (if 13-yrs-old) or fiver years younger than me (if 10-years-old).
S/N: I always talk to big brother about my sexuality problems, no I don't do incest, maybe all of the above but not incest or zoosexualism! Anyways, I talked to him about my affectioin to the younger and he's telling me it's either because how I long to be a kid, pure and carefree or because I want to give the affection I never recieved in my childhood to those around me. In either case they both sound creepy and still make me sound creepy! >< For those questioning, YES I do get turned on by loli, alright?! Don't judge me, I'm still the dimwitted and happy Mimi! XD
Well, when at the school, I saw both of the two kids I had been taking a liking to. One was barely in fourth grade but he was already obtaining the whole 'emo look', as some call it. Y'know what I mean, right? The shaggy hair, a piece streaked blonde draping over his eye. As the 'Emo Kid Song' says, that 'flippy thingy'! XD He had the tight denim pants, tight hoodie that was black and had some generic saying on it; wasn't quite pating attention to that part, and the big black boots! He was so CUTE! XD I had a fungasm on the spot. o-o;;; Here's the sad part:
As I'm walking up to him to say 'hi' again this other girl around his age approaches him and gives him a heart-shaped card. What else could have been written on it but
'
WILL YOU BE MY VALENTINE?
'!Right there... That was all I needed, my heart broken! Shattered! Destroyed! Once again my heart of mushed pieces stuck together with masking tape, crazy glue, and macaroni pieces was strewn across the pavement. I literally, grew depressed, I didn't even have the heart to look up to when I passed him and congratulate him with the kiss he got after saying a few words when he tore his face from the text. The same happened to the blonde kid, some girl asked him out though... Damn.
STORY OF MY LIFE! emo
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Hang in there.