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Jewlz Thoughts
some of my poems....
CUT

The Blade Was Rusted
But I Didn't Care
I Rolled Up My Sleeve
And Sat On My Bed

I Counted To Three...
Slowly And Shaky
One...I Paused
Two...
I Placed The Blade Against My Wrist
Then Looked Up At The Ceiling
Three...
I Pushed The Blade Down On My Wrist
Pulled It Fast
Then Counted Again

One...
The Tears Are Rolling Down My Cheeks
Two...
My Bodies Shaking
Three...
Push It Down And Pull Again

Dropped The Blade
And Cried Some More
Screaming Cussing
What The Hell Have I Done

The Door Swung Open
Mommy Screamed
Ran To The Phone
And Called The Police

An Ambulance Came
And Found They Were Too Late
I Was Already Dead

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©2007 ~Xx666jewl666xX





THROUGH THE COVER OF RAIN
When it is raining
You let it all out
All of your tears
Your sorrows
Come out
Deep in your heart
Down in your soul
The black the white
Become fuzzy
Neither wrong or right
They all become gray
A never ending question
A never ending answer
Walking in circles
Never find your way
Alone again
To end your days
©2006-2007 ~Xx666jewl666xX



GOOD-BYE

Slit my wrists
Watch me die
Blood will flow
You can't deny
Slow and painful
The knife will cut
Threw my veins
To end this life
Alone and single
No one will miss
The loner
The loser
The failure
The b***h
©2006-2007 ~Xx666jewl666xX




THE WARIOR

She lays in her bed
Gasping for her breath
IV in her arm
Heart monitor on her chest
With mom and frank by her side
She'll fight a good fight
Won't take any prisoners
She'll be taken up to heaven
In a gold horse driven carriage
She's a fighter
She makes it threw it all
Her strength will carry on with her
Up to heaven
Threw it all
She'll never give up fighting
That's not the woman she is
She'll fight for her life
Until her last breath leaves her body
She'd want us to be strong
And remember she's in a better place
With Albert, Shorty, and Claus
And the rest of her furry friends
©2006-2007 ~Xx666jewl666xX




CANNOT

I cannot drink
I cannot smoke
I cannot go out with friends
I cannot smile
I cannot laugh
I can only shead a tear
Does this matter
Will it matter
That you didn't say good-bye
I'll take my life
For you tonight
To prove I was always there
©2006-2007 ~Xx666jewl666xX




SCARS
the road to sanity is weary
the road to happiness is shaky
pain, will I overcome you?
will it take control of me
And take its penalty across my skin
Deep within my heart
Will it stop the blood from flowing threw my veins
Deeper and deeper the pain will go
Where it stops
When will I know
When it does,
Will I die?
Or will I have to fight again tomorrow?
The fight is long
The pain will grow
But will I over come it once again
forever more
For I am the fighter
With the scars on her skin
In her heart
In her soul
To remind me of the battles I have fought
And will fight
For the days are numbered
As the sun and moon will set and rise
The tears on my cheek
Show I’m alive
©2006-2007 ~Xx666jewl666xX



DEEP WITHIN ME
I look up to the heavens
reach out my hands
scream out to the angels
is anyone up there, listening?
can anyone help me understand?

I don't know what's on your agenda
I don't know what's in store
i don't know what you're booking
just hoping it'll be pure

you can see into my heart
you can see into my soul
you can see all my cuts
the bruises
them all

why you afraid
why you ignore
the hints
the feelings
and the heart beats

now I stand in front of the mirror
to face my fears
I know I have you
to guide me
to help me succeed

The faults are pushed away
The prose are brought out to play
So lets live life to the fullest
And never look back to past
Of those days
When I sat alone and cried
This is the new me
welcome
©2006-2007 ~Xx666jewl666xX




MY ONLY SIN
I stare into the mirror,
and all I see is pain.

All the pain I keep inside,
And now I set it free.

This knife I hold in my hand,
Is the only thing I have...
The only thing that keeps me here,
The only thing that keeps me alive.

I close my eyes
I take a breath,
And run it threw my skin.

Watch the blood,
Dripping down.
Is this my only sin?
©2006-2007 ~Xx666jewl666xX




DAD
You turned your back
On mom and me
You packed your bags and left

I was five
Sad and scared
Worried I caused the fight

Twelve years have past
And I resent you now
For all the pain you've caused us

We've made it it dad
Just mom and me
With no help or support from you

We keep on living in the past
And that's no life for us

We know it's better
we know it's right
You pretend I don't exist

You might have been there when i was small
But that's the past
And this is now
©2006-2007 ~Xx666jewl666xX










I HAVE MANY POEMS... SO I WILL UPDATE THIS






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eskandarian
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commentCommented on: Sun Feb 18, 2007 @ 01:30am
nice poems your into poetry i see so am i...i just hide it from society cuz im sorta ashamed of that ability...except when it comes to love poems i give it to the ones i love i might make one for you jewelz just too show you how much i heart you heart heart heart heart


commentCommented on: Sun Feb 18, 2007 @ 01:33am
give me a break steven...
you know i have a boyfriend and you know i care about him



Xx_jewlzy_xX
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eskandarian
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commentCommented on: Sun Feb 18, 2007 @ 04:43am
i know but i meant in a friend sorta way not a in love with you sorta way like i care about you way well you see where im going with this right?


commentCommented on: Sun Feb 18, 2007 @ 04:54am
ya... sorry i got angry... just something are going wrong... and i'm very worried i might lose Frank crying



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Lezaer
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commentCommented on: Mon Feb 19, 2007 @ 04:26pm
Watermelons

Green Buddhas
On the fruit stand.
We eat the smile
And spit out the teeth.


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