The more things change, the more they stay the same. What a load of crap. Ever since we came here, Kiba and I have been steadily growing further and further apart. I feel it, I see it, everything tells me that nothing between us is the same. Well, naturally, I know I can't expect EVERYTHING to be the same as when we were younger. She's grown into her Alpha status and damnit, I'm a blood-sucking corpse. Things have CHANGED. And I'm losing the best friend I've ever had, the one person who's been there for me my whole life, because of it.
I have to admit, I'm jealous of her. No really, I am. Look at her. She has everything we ever dreamed of when we were growing up. A loving husband, six adorable little munchkins, a permanent home where she and Kou can raise their little ones and live out their days in comfort and security. While I...... I whored myself on the streets to get enough money to run away from the place where I was born. I slept on a couch in a bar for the better part of a year after I managed to get myself Embraced. (Nice going there, Tsukai. Brilliant.) I've been ******** up and ******** over more times than I can count, mostly because of my own stupidity, I can never have children, I can never have a place to call home for the rest of my life or a spouse or a family or anything permanent because I never know when it might all be burnt to a smouldering shell.......
*a teardrop blots the page*
It's not fair......
Hello Darkness, my old friend I've come to talk with you again.....
Aoi Tsukai · Mon Mar 07, 2005 @ 08:06am · 2 Comments |