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i hate my sister sooo much i hate her wit all my soul i hope she dies and suffer in hell she ruins my life. everyone in church finds her perfect nice and sweet tey know me as unperfect and the left overs. but for reals shes horrible she hits me tells me everyday tht im ugly tht im sooo stupid and tht im useless. she makes me feel sooo bad tht i sumtimes just wana lock in my room and cry.she abuses me the most. wenever i dnt do s**t to her she starts it. she wants to feel better and more perfect than me. i dnt wana go to south west cause shell emberess me and do alot things to me tht i couldnt imagine.wen i hang wit my friends shell do anything in her power to distroy me and such.i bet u think well thts wat older brothers and sister sopoes to do .well do ur brothers and sister sopoes to abuse u? hit u hurt u beat u up until they feel they had enough no.my sister is 17 years oldand she acts like a 11 year old. she has everything she has more clothes than i do. she has more than two pair of shoes than i do. and she also has undergarments tht r brand new or a good condition. i have to be the sis who has to care bout the budget. i wear old clothes from fith or fourth grade i sumtimes have to wear the same clothes over and over again. im sumtimes ashame to go to skool on a free dress day.my friends dnt understand. sum of them say well thts ur promblems others joke bout it and others just say well i dnt care instead of being there for me they just dnt care thts how i feel.my life is just s**t tht i cant even say it right
all this s**t starts out wit my sister cause she the only one who makes me feel awful eachday.i guess i have to forget bout it cause my friends dnt care my perants dnt care and none cares. i guess i have to take tht beaten and those abuses from my sis and also from the world. sad cry