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what it means...whoa.....
Okay... not kool... I had THE weirdest experience. I'm not a real girly-girl. I don't do "weak at the knees" or "mushy" or "love" lalala crap. But... really weird... Ok.. I feel bad, 'cuz I have a bf and all... but I've been liking him, like kool as a crush, or REALLY good friend, he's just not boyfriend material..... So there's this guy.. He's in my science class... I'm kinda new to my school, so I don't really know that many names... and I was passing out papers, so of course I'm asking a friend who's who.... but he's kind of brushing me off.. so I get really annoyed at him and I kinda... raise my voice.... and Mr. G goes "hey!" and I'm all "oops..." I mean no! he's in my class!! not now!! please, not now!! and I go "He's just annoying me, and won't answer my question" So Mr.G goes "But there are other ways to go about this" so I say "uh-huh" and he says "hey! Eddie!" and (btw... he's EXTREMELY annoying-- u don't even know..... I mean, I can never get him 2 shut up wen I ask him 2!!!!!) eddie says "yes?" Mr.G:"play nice" like in a sweet talking-down-to-an-adorable-puppy-dog voice. Eddie:"But I wasn't.." Joey: "Hey- play nice." I was all OMIGOD!! He's standing up for me.. in a kinda... weird sorta way... and throb goes the heart. Then, he walks behind me. And he felt close.... I can sense body heat, and he was either CLOSE, really warm, or I was feeling my own warmth.. for slightly obvious reasons... and he says, "you heard the man" in almost a drawn murmur. And it might not of been on purpose, 'cuz he just has a deep voice... but it felt PRETTY seductive...... and throb goes the heart again, beating, "doki doki" (sry: english translation: nervous heart increase-ish.... nervousness and heart beating faster....) And now, when I think about it, My knees get kinda weak, which DOESN'T happen... and throb goes the heart, beating "doki doki" Am I wrong?? I mean a guy that good looking probably already has lots of admirer girls to choose from, and not to mention a gf(why wouldn't he)... And I have a bf... but I have a weird "u can cheat on me if u actually like her" MO... but I don't consider it cheating, 'cuz I don't mind if my guy wants a polygamy relationship.... tho some girls might... but I can only imagine how it might feel... I only know the kind of pain where the guy you REALLYREALLYREALLY like ends up with another girl. But is falling for (and i dont mean love-- i really dont take that word lightly as i said.. im not so much of a romantic girly-girl...... except when I'm seduced) another guy wrong or bad??????? please answer/comment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! heart heart sweatdrop sweatdrop redface redface xp xp question question cry cry wahmbulance crying domokun domokun exclaim exclaim wahmbulance crying
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