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Well. Today started off okay. Drill meet today, sweet. I'm gonna have some fun. So we go and we get there, we do alright. Knockout comes around. It gets goin and people start droppin out like flies. I end up third. Everyone is like "Good job!" and such, then I get my trophy (which the award for knockout is usually a medal to be worn with the JROTC uniform, so I was kinda pissed about that) and I walk back and everyone is like, good job, congratz. And i hear this. "I'm ashamed that Sc**** (my last name) was the first person to get a knockout trophy." And I start thinking wtf. So we go back to change and this one guy was like, "Dude! Sc**** popped a boner when he was marchin out there!! He was all like this:" and he started walking bent over. I was sitting there thinking, again, WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM? and now the whole school is gonna be like "SC**** get's a boner for a trophy!" Wtf. And this isn't the only time I get dissed by the JROTC guys. I came into the program my sophmore year, and I looked up to these guys. Superior officers, they have experience, they can teach me! And they laugh and cut-up, the nI start laughing and it's either "What the **** are you laughing about?" or "Sc**** shut the **** up" "Sc**** go kill yourself" Sc**** your in formation stop screwing around" (AS HE IS DANCING BACK AND FORTH)
"Sc**** your worthless..." "... your no good." "... you suck at life." I AM SICK AND TIRED OF PUTTING UP WITH CRAP FROM THEM!! SICK OF IT! I win the first fricken trophy our unit ever gets and you know how they thank me? By PUTTING ME DOWN. MAKING STUFF UP. Saying they are ASHAMED that i won. And you know what? I used to value what they said to me! I used to look up to them. And you know how I'm repayed. "Sc**** you'll never amount to anything." "F***ing air force P****."

I am fricken tired of this....

You know they think "Oh it's nothing, he'll get over it. It doesn't hurt him. No effect on him whatsoever." But you know what? THEY ARE WRONG. I did value their opinions. I was ecstatic, I mean I won a trophy! BUt nooo. "YOUR WORTHLESS" It does affect me. The whole ride home, the only thing I thought about was beating the tar outta all of em, even though I couldn't take em one on one. (And it's not limited to that. Some of the other stuff I'm not posting. Yeah. I was that pissed. I'm THAT fed up.) It has a profound effect on me. I HATE THEM ALL.

Fricken Ridiculus... stare