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My heart beats to a different drum. An off key one. My life was fine there for awhile, now here I am again, stuck in a this whole I dug myself. Somehow or another I do this each year. I cant find happiness and keep it because I am so wishy-washy. Poor people that stick with me. I really appluad them. Because at times I dont even want to stick with myself! Thats pretty bad. What should I do? I try and try to be cold hearted, so I dont have to go through what I went through in the past, but somehow people get through to me, and I like it, at the same time it drives me crazy. I dont want to hurt anyone, but I dont know how to say no.
Bad habit, I really need to start learning. If I keep this up, I will hurt the ones that love me most. And i dont want that. I really love my friends, they mean the world to me, and yes I am refering to all you on here! You guys have no clue how happy you've made me, its nice to know I have people out there that actually want to be my friend and will stick by your side.
I hope I can bring myself to do what I need to do, for if I dont I am just lying to that person, and myself! Which, let me tell you, is not healthy! Im a pretty happy person, and I would like to stay that way. So here it goes...
 Oni Hina · Mon Mar 12, 2007 @ 07:16am · 1 Comments |
