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This Is My Journal Of My Life On Any Other Websites And In Real Life. Things Typed Here Will Be Really What Happened To Me. If You Think I`m Weird Back Off Now. If You Think I`m Just Dumb Back Off. This Is My Story Of My Life. And One Day I Will
Worst Day Ever.
So Unhappy. I`m Not Mentioning Any Names. But Someone Made Me Horribly Upset. I Can Never Tell Him How He Made Me So Upset. I Wish I Could.. He`s Just Leaving Me A Lonley Heart. I Hate This. Now I`m At The Edge Of My Life. Wondering, If This Pain Is Okay? Should I Just End It? All These Things I Think About. I`ll Never Get To Say What I Wanted. I Never Will Get To Continue My Dreams. No Longer Do I Want To Ever Want To Hug Him. This Pain.. Is So Horrible. And Yet He`ll Never Know What He Did To Me. Maybe It`s Because I Was Snooping Around And Looking At His Profile And I Saw Something Suspicous. Maybe It`s Because I Am Too Sensitive. I Just Don`t Know. Maybe I`m Just To Much Of The Jealous Type. I Mean He`s Happy.. And If I Truly Loved Him I Would Be Happy For Him.. crying I`m Just So Unsure. I Want To Wash Away This Feeling Of Pain. And What Hurts More Is I Have Nobody To Talk About This To. Oh Yeah Sure Your Reading This, Not Sure why Someone Is Reading This But I Cannot Just Walk Past This Feeling. I Loved Him So, And He Never Told Me.. Never Told Me.. Never.. And I Thought He Loved Me. Maybe I Am Not Good Enough. Maybe He Is Just Lying. But One This Is For Sure. When I See I`m Not In His Top 10 Friends List.. crying I Just Get So Sad.. That`s So Important To Me. And He`s On Mine.. Am I Not A Friend At All? Is He Really The One? Maybe It`s Just A Good Thing My Mom Took Away My MSN. Maybe It`s A Good Thing She Blocked Hotmail.. My Trust.. Is Just Fading Now. I`m Barely Here.. There Is Only One Thing I Would Ever Want To Say To Him..
I Love You Forever..






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Kishio
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commentCommented on: Fri Mar 16, 2007 @ 08:23pm
    You should get a hold of yourself. He was just some jerk on the internet that you would have never met anyway. Does it really matter what he thinks? Seriously. Maybe if you tried to cheer up abit and stopped feeling so sorry for yourself, someone would notice you and come to love you. I don't see why you have such a desperation to be loved, but love isn't everything. You always say you don't have any friends, but what am I, then? You never made and effort to be friends with me, you never call. You're not the only one who has problems, and if you did take your life that'd be incredibly selfish. You think your doing everyone a favor, but your not.


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