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I've felt this kinda of pain. It wasn't as bad as the first one, that's for sure. nothing can compare to the first time. Nothing can ever compare to how I much I felt before. I don't like him the way I use to, but it still hurts. Why am I just remembering it again after countless days of forgetting about it? I don't know... well... I came across a picture... and looking at it hurt me. If I don't like him anymore... why does it still hurt so bad? I want to get rid of this pain. It hurts so much. I would cry but it would only flood my mind. It won't do any good. My broken heart is still left, unmended. I hate him... but not really. I love him... but I don't think I really do. I want to die... just so everything... all my troubles would go away. I want to die... but I don't want to let go of those troubles that I laugh at in the end. Even little thing is lodged inside me and I need someone to chip it out. But no one can.

I love to hate my pain...i have nothing better to do. It hurts... i can't let it go... no matter how much I try. I hate you... but I love you too much to let you, who are my troubles... go away.