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At first you think everything's fine then you relize its not, and your a big looser. Your friend has a boy friend and though you didnt relize before, you relize now that your useless to them and you need to mind you own buisness becuse they don't need you really and they dont want you. Then you turn to a diffrent friend that you thought you were getting closer to, but then, you also relize they don't need or want to you either. They ignore your phone calls, and barley talk to you. they are included with your other friends boyfriend thing, and they become more secretive as the boyfriend and friend get closer. Arguments come up, big things that you dont know about 'cus they dont want to include you 'cus your opionon is worthless. Then you trun to another friend, who also knows more than you. She's open to your statements and listen, but you dont seem to really feel happy. You include that friend but turn to another for more support, since the other doesn'y really understand you. The one you've turned to, your last friend, becomes really close to you. But then you get depressed or in a bad mood and take it out on her or you ignore her to avoid the "whats the matter" or the argumenting. But then she thinks your mad and you can't stand it, as it happens more often. You love her like a sister but these little arguments seem to be getting bigger. You finally turn to you last hope. your sister. But she too is no help. She has her own problems, and she has your friend (the one with aboyfriends) problem. Now your out in the cold. you dont know where or who to go to. You listen to depressing music, lock yourself in your room every day, and become more and more distnt from your friends, you rdamily and the whole damned world. You think about it everyday as you try to find a salution. But no one wants to include you, and you and your friend are just becoming more distant. What now? You do0nt have your friends, your parents are fighting, your sister has things to deal with, and the only one to turn to isnt human. Hell he's not even down here with me! Yes this is my hell of a life, and it seems to be getting worse. Who do i trun to? This website? This place that for all i know, can have stalkers all init!? I dont know... Maybe i can join that special some one... up there.