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Wow. Im like..not happy. At all. Wonder why that is. Im not the type of person who bitches about life. I actually hate people like that, bitchin abouyt something when somebody halfway around the world has it like 18 times worst. I still can't ignore the fact that I'm losing weight(im already skinny..so thats bad)...I rarely have an apetite...and my skin is beggining to turn pale...weird. So. Theres people I'd like to kill right now. But obviously, I cant. I can only hope that life takes its course and can make them pay back the pain I've suffered. Like they say...Karmas a b***h. What pisses me off the most is the fact that I was so close to getting the car of my dreams....but someone else bought it. stare I just wanted to scream and break something...but hey, there are other cars, whatever. Odd...i always hated emo kids...why am I getting the feeling that Im close to being one...wait..eww no. Screw that. You know..i always considered myself a drifter...yea...kewl...drifters dont need girls and they get to drive all day...and work on their fast-a** cars...but...then again...where IS my car? That part really bothers me...don't get me wrong..i'm not doing this -> * -sobs- i need a car emo -sobs more- * nah...I'm just saying...I don't have one...I feel kinda poserish with the whole drifter thing.....I can't go all my life drifting someone else's ride....sigh. I think I'll drop the drifter thing....so...then it'd be.... shadow_bunny_drifter ..huh. But...shadow_bunny would sound sortof fruity. So I guess its just shadow_bunny_drifter. Shadow. Its exactly what I am. Its cool, I can skip class easily, no one notices Im out of the room ^-^, and then I can have fun day dreaming somewere else instead of a dark class room full of hipocrite people. Oh and I can go to places...and leave..without changing the atmosphere...its like a natural sense of stealth. The problem with my style is that when people actually notice me, all they want to do is change me. stare Screw them. Im not anti-social. Theres nothing wrong with me...this is how im suposed to be...in a land of make believe..that dont believe in me.... mrgreen Wow.................I really need a car. v_v

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