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I've always had trouble expressing my feelings in a healthy way, especially when I'm talking to someone one on one, and especially if they are "bad" feelings. The best solution I could find, is to hide them. But, I don't want to anymore, since I know it's bad, and I know it's going to end up hurting me. So why do I still do it? I guess, I can only get it out in writing, like on the computer, I can show, that I do feel things other then joy.

A couple days ago, my sister asked me something. She asked me, if I felt trapped. When I inquired upon what she meant, she said that the snow, was making her feel trapped inside the house. The whole time, while she sat there, I wanted to say yes. But I told her the half truth, no. The snow wasn't trapping me in the house, it was just allowing me to take a step back and look at things differently. I think snow is beautiful, even if it's spring. But, I am trapped, and I feel trapped. It's just, not in the house, but inside of me. I feel trapped because, I don't know how to let myself out, I don't know how to show my emotions, and I don't know how, to let people in, to help me. I'm trapped, inside myself, and of my own doing....