well, i was sick when i woke up this morning but i still went to school though mom wanted me to stay home. i fell asleep during zero hour and felt like i was going to barff during 1st. i just asked costello if i could sit out. he said ok so i got casey's leather jacket and curled up in the corner and slept. casey even let me keep the jacket till the bell rang and he usualy never does that. i just slept the entire time but i still felt really bad. i was just glad that there was no practice today but i had to go shoping. rather myserable. for lunch i had a salad and i got a little ice creame because i didnt feel good. it didnt sit very well with the sparkling orange juice i had, but i didnt get sick. it is all this stress that is making me sick and i know it. but there isnt much i can do about it right now, im just trying to keep things straightened out. mostly it is because i love casey so much, but he keeps me at a distance. i am learning to stay back, but sometimes i just cant resist. he is just so wonderful and i will never get a chance at it. i am regretting some things lately, particularly with gene, but i cant change that. i am hoping to patch things up at prom and im wishing someone would take me to prom this year. i dont know, i wouldnt mind if ryan took me or someone, i asked casey and he said no, but he did promice me a dance so i have at least that to look forward too. carol will be there so i wont be completely alone like i usualy am. i cant begin to fathom what next year will be like. a senior, only a month and a half before im a senior. i should be hearing back from the uscg by may 15 as to weather or not i am in the aim program. i dont know if i really want to be in the coast guard, and if i am, i think im going a different route. so yeah, ill stop babbleing for a while.
 blutesauger · Fri Apr 13, 2007 @ 05:00am · 0 Comments |
