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man i really love this guy! he is so awesome! my friends don't like him and say he is mean but he is never mean to me! he is so sweet! i love everything about him! his eyes, his, hands, his smile, his hair. he is soooo smart! i don't think he likes me though. although i think i'm picking up signs that he does. i mean my instinct is really good and is never wrong but this time i'm worried that the fact that i'm in love with this guy makes me read too much into his actions towards me and see what i want to see even though it's not there. oh well. i really want to tell him but i'm scared of scaring him off and making things awkward. i had other crushes but it never was this strong. i never had a first love. i think this is it! but i doubt he will ever like me. i actually am starting to think he likes this girl who sits next to me, Aerielle. i don't know. i think i will just satisfy myself with watching him from afar and having him talk to me only about schoolwork. xd heart heart heart