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Hey babies,
I am so bored! Just got on to check my PMs. Now I'm chatting w/ Chelsi... About everything recently, Candace, Ed, stress, school, ect. I'm sitting her wondering why I get so upset. Or maybe it because suddenly I'm feeling more than I think I should, I want to disconnect from ppl. As soon as I tried to I realized I couldn't and thats scary. Not scary for most ppl but scary for me... its new for me to depend on ppl, it's getting too easy for someone to become a big part of my life. Essential. :sigh: Perhaps I am committment phobic... I don't mind ppl relying on me but when it come to the other way around it's harder. Still I'm working on it, this year has been big for me... pushing me to become more comfortable with other ppl. My new friends at Johnson just expect it, they're in no way shy. They're ppl different from any I've ever been around and I'm pretty sure thats a good thing.
Well I must leave you to ponder further,
Love you,
Mary