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Let me start by saying that it has been another long time since my latest entry. I know, I know. I guess I have been spending too much time on World of Warcraft. Good thing I've cut back on it immensely. The reason for that is becaues of one thing. I'm finally sick and tired of where I'm at in life right now, so now is the time to make things right. I've limited my playtime so that it's practically for my editorial internship. I've also set up appointments for my CompTIA A+ tests for IT certification. But there was something else that caused me not only to cut back on WoW, but to also get my life in order. That something is the pain I felt when my girlfriend broke up with me.

Some of you already know who I'm talking about since it's pretty obvious. Never have I felt so hurt in my life. My heart ripped from its chest and stomped on. I'm still suffering from some of the effects and now I think I'm having trouble eating as I skipped lunch today an am having a hell of a time eating dinner. Although I somewhat understand her reason for breaking up with me, a big part of me feels like I've been used. But yeah, this is what prompted me to become so determined to succeed in my life. I'm not going to do it for her however. This is for myself. Too long have I mistreated myself and went by in life just barely passing, sometimes failing. Too long have I neglected reality. No more.

Like I previously mentioned, I scheduled appointments for my tests. I also set up a study schedule and have been at it since. Left with nothing but bitterness and anger, I'll use them to my advantage and fuel my drive to succeed with them.

Still, if I could, I would take her back. Maybe I just haven't gotten over her yet. If she chooses not to get back together with me after I reach my goals, nice knowing you I'd say. That'll just leave the problem of how to erase the painful memories from my mind. stare

Anyways, unfortunately I don't have much to report on gaming since all I've been playing is WoW. Maybe this cutback will get me to play them again. The only thing I have to report is that I went in to the headquarters this past friday. Pretty cool imo. Got to hang out with the editors there and was shown around the place. I'd like to work there, that's all I have to say. wink I was also given two new assignments, so I gotta find time to work on those in between my studying. Oh yeah, I was told by one of my family members that she would see about getting me a full-time position at the IT department of the company I'm writing articles for. All I have to do is pass those tests and become certified. Thing is, I'll have to give up writing due to conflict of interests. confused Oh well, I heard it pays more money and I like working with computers so it's a win-win situation, heheh.

One last thing. Because of this unfortunate turn of events, I'm not sure how much longer I'll keep my Gaia account for. I have practically no more use for it now, but you never know I guess. Only time will tell.