Yep.Today was the day. And I bloody blew it. Hardcore. Dammit. Before school, she gets there, sits down where she does, and is just sitting there. Meanwhile, I am doing homework that needed to be done for 1st period. I was done, but I couldn't bring myself to go over there. Then, after about ten minutes of freaking out, one of her friends shows up. I'm thinking "Well dammit, blew it now." But, a few minutes before the bell rang, I atleast said "Hello" to her. She said Hi back, and that was it. Dammit. Dammit dammit dammit. I wanted to actually TALK to her ssssooooo badly. I don't know. Maybe I was too afraid. Afraid of being rejected. Afraid that she might think I'm all crazy and we would eventually stop talking on Gaia. I don't know. I've been kicking myself about it all day. I was just so bloody afraid. Maybe some other time, after I gather myself together. -_- ~R
Ironic Karma · Thu Apr 19, 2007 @ 11:35pm · 60 Comments |