Do you really want something that hurts sooo bad? It makes you feel like your dieing inside, Which I have ... I've cried for sooo long but now I've stoped. I can't really feel much of anything but numbness now ..I worked hard most of my life to stop this from happening, not letting anyone in but I got lonely and sad. SO I TOOK A CHANGE and i kept taking it ... but I love him more then I could ever say ... I want to hate him for it .. for making me feel good, for showing me he cared , for everything nice!! but then one day I came home and he wasn't nowhere in sight. A lonely man on the lonely mean streets.. Like the times before I know where you are now. if i called you now I might burst into tears and want you back .. I love you more then life it's self but I keep trying to move on but I'm still holding on incase you come home to me! you were my teacher in life and in love and now your teaching me how to hurt ... You once tolld me you would come back after i settler down but If your not even going to fight for me why should I keep fighting for you. I've always gave you a place to say. a bed to sleep in and someone who would do anything for you. why was I the only one fighting for this you took avanish of me. ******** my silly little dreams of wanting a home and a family of our own ... right ... it's just not you .... but it's apart of me it could be yours too but you just couldn't have that .... So I guess I got what I had coming to me .. for lovng and in placeing my heart into you ... you ripped it up and throwed it in the mud and walked all over it .. but no matter how hard this is to say .. I will always love you and no matter how hard you try you will always have a piece of me in you
Nezumi 3 · Sun Mar 27, 2005 @ 07:07am · 2 Comments |