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It is good and all,but the fact that every where I go I see someone with there lover hold hands .. or kissing .. or have fun together it reminds me of my love that I lost at the moment and it is kinda interfearing with my free time to my self. I see it and it makes me want to like go sit in a coner and just be alone. I wish tammy and me were not in the fight othere wsie I would most likly have her here and I would be albe to have fun with her at the Rave .. or DDR ... or just walking around the sharaton just injoying each otherws company ... but no I have ... oh nvm All and all the more people I see together the more I hate it and I want to to be with someone at a fun event like this.

this happen last year too around this time ... so I was kinda depressed at the same time ... >> but like we were not broke up so I was looking forward to seeing her when I got home ..... but like Arg I miss holding hands .. kissing .. or just enjoying each othere company ... it sucks D:< Oh well that was my anime boston EXP I got for this weekend... SUCKY

It just sucks that I cant get away from seeing love .. as it is being presonified ... all over the place ... good even in my food I hade chiniese and the damm fortune said



Seriously please help me get a sign that thinks will look up .. or something because I'm sick of seeing life like this because it blows really badly.

Ok I hade all this money .. and agian I didn't buy anything. I think I dont enjoy . getting things anymore. sad this is jusdt in general .. >> WTF.

Oj I didn't sleep for the full timne I was here so basically I was up all day and all night in the gaming room eatting and playing DDR ... I kinda wanted to test my body,which surprizingly I didn't get sick or pass out from lack of food .. or drink. it kinda sucks that I didn;t have anyone to sunggle for them 3 days ... >> this fcking love thingy is getting to me ARG ... Tammy I miss you heart heart heart there I said it .. I dont care I'm expressing my feelings.

god today sucked thouhg I was sitting in the coner all sad .. and stuff .. because I kept on seeing couple together ... >> and well some random girl came up and asked me what was wrong I told her the whole thing and then she hugged me which kinda made me feel okward,but at the same time It felt like a tammy hug and that made me more shity about the fact that we are not together cry

Ok and to all who called me EMO .. except tammy /... SUCK MY FCKING NUTS ... all the people I told this too this story they said I'm bnot emo at all but depressed .. there is a big diffrents all so BITE ME !!!

SO STOP FCKING CALLING ME EMO !!!! scream

Oh and I got to talk to a girl about how she would feel if she was in tammy shoes .. she told me that .. she would forgive me,but she would be mad for a little while only because of fact that how I said it to her. Acutlly I asked quite a few girls on this they all diffrent things ... one said she would kill me !!! eek sweatdrop stressed but I wont get into that one. Any ways as usual everyone else hade a load of fun,but me .. maybe I should never go to anime boston ... because everytime I have ... something with me and tammy happens and like ... I get all depressed like this and it ruines my weekend ... but No Tammy this is not your fualt that my weekend got ruined I also hade a few othere things on mind like .. I was hopeing and preaying I get the job. and othere things. we are going to be leaving on sunday which is ok .. but I'm going back to town .. someplace I dont wever want to be agian . only because .. I have hade nothing but bad luck in that town .. the only good thing was

I met the most wonderful person in the world heart TAMMY heart

but .. she always when something good happens to me I lose it .. I should seriously just like rip my heart out and enever have the feeling agian .. and just be alone . I will never find anyone else like her she loved me for who I was .. and not judge me on looks or race or anything like that.

All thew girl in southbridge well 90% you know who the 10% are that dont count for this so dont yell at me but all the 90% are sluty whores that want babys at the age of like fcking 13 .. and want to get all the STD's they can. it is like a fcking game to them ... TRY TO CATCH THE MOST STDS .... READY SET GOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! god that is so gross when you think about it.

there was kinda something that was strange last night before the 18+ gaming night ... I met this kid he was down I asked him why and he said his GF dumped him the week before AB ... kinda stange .. and kinda I feel for him.


Well that was my whole AB trip .. fcking sucked i might not go next year Unless I have someone I really want to go with othere then that fcking it I give up on cons.I mean what is the point of having fun .. if you cant because you are bother by things .. or you really have no one to share the fun times with ... John,brian,and ren were all off doing there own things... and I was left to really do nothing .. and I really didn't want to d anything I just drowned my sarrow away with DDR .. so kinda cure ... HAHAHAHA >>> MY a**.