i've been thinking alot about zena. i miss her so much. she did so much during her life. she had so much to be proud of. she is...was the most amazing woman. everything she did for NOW and everything she did for woman in general. she touched so many peoples hearts and changed so many people.
every night before i go to bed i look at the picture on my wall of her and ask myself if she really is gone... then i realise she is and i cry.
i didn't get to spend as much time with her as i would have liked. she lived in michigan and i in montreal. but she and i did get that one weekend in NYC for my birthday... we said the next place we'd go was chicago... she wanted to take me of a boat tour to see the buildings cause i loved the arcitecture in NYC. then when i was 21 she and i said we'd go to Las Vegas. i guess that will never happen.
she was to young to die. she had so much more to do... why her. why then. she did nothing but good things. she didn't deserve to die... i want her back, i want her to be back and healthy.
i want her and my mom to go on the alaskan cruise she and my mom talked about talking next year for my moms 50th birthday... i want them to retire together. i want her and frank to have a 50th wedding anniversary and celebrate every single occasion... thats what true love is... zena and frank... the last time i saw zena was on webcam when she was in the hospital about 2 weeks before she died.
i remember my mom telling me how she died... she was laying in bed... frank and my mom were saying good night to her and the each kissed her on the forehead and they knew she was dying.... they held her screaming that they loved her... my mom said she could feel my aunts spirit leave her body. i never got to say good bye. before that day my mom told me my aunt just wasn't my aunt... she wasn't there she was out of it... and my mom said she kept saying little things...i don't know...
i just wish she was still here....i miss her so much....
i really need to try and get some sleep... or atleast laydown... night
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