well... since yesterday... I was being reminded of a past relationship that I couldn't let go... no matter how much i've tired. Everytime I remember just one little thing... everything else starts popping into my head.
"He only likes you as a friend"
"why won't you guys just go out?"
"you're perfect for each other"
constantly I'm reminded with these words... all lies and some truths to them. I know that he'll only like me as a friend and nothing more... and that hurts... i know... but i don't care cause I'm still going to love him.
he doesn't like me so that's why were not going out... no more questions for me. Why do they all ask me but not him? I don't hear anyone asking him "Hey! How come you and Maria aren't going out, man?"
it's always "maria! how come you're not going out with him?"
I'm tired.... just.... ugh....
and if we're so perfect for each other... why do i feel so apart from him.... i hate this feeling....
I can take anymore pain....
I have threapy today! w00t!
*tries to be enthusiastic* oh mari... just cut the bull s**t *is talking to self* ok mari
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 Mari Lambo · Tue May 01, 2007 @ 11:50am · 0 Comments |
