[Ok, this is, I think, a better response to someone's journal than a comment could ever do]:
First, don't feel sorry about the arms. I would rather be worried and helping you than not knowing what is going on and do nothing about it. Now then...
I am so, so, veryily so, glad to have met you and talked to you as much as I have. Ever since Lauren I have been afraid of the same thing happening to me as happened with that relationship. And, I, too am afraid of what might happen when I take that first step. I love what we have right now. Being able to have someone to tell everything too. I don't know what would happen if it ended. But, at the same time, I don't want to be afraid of what might happen once that first step is taken. I too, am afraid of getting rejected, but I wish that that won't happen. If one of us doesn't take that first step, then we will just be here, waiting, afraid of what might happen. And I don't want to be like that. It is killing me. Everyday I kick myself at school for not going up to you, and thinking of what might happen if I do. I feel so safe and secure talkign to you, so it baffles me that I can't do it at school. I mean, you're WONDEFUL. I would never want to hurt you. I couldn't live with myself if I did that.
But, I PROMISE you, once that first step is taken, I will be sure not to step all over and crush your heart.
I love you so much. ~Boo Boo heart
Ironic Karma · Thu May 03, 2007 @ 06:13am · 56 Comments |