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Hmm well still nothing has been happening much. Although I just watched Memoirs Of A Geisha, such a pretty movie.
I noticed I really liked this quote from the movie.
"The heart dies a slow death
Shedding each hope like leaves
Until one day there are none
No hopes
Nothing remains"
Ok now that quote isn't to amazing or creative exactly I mainly liked the second line comparing it to like a dying tree. Plus I related it to how I've felt a lot especially recently, so much of any hopes I had just fade. Some people actually see something in me but I can never see it myself, I can't really feel anything in me. I don't really know what I want and I'm constantly repeating this to myself all the time and now I seem to be even losing a lot of the things I once had. I'm glad my dad has been cool with me still living with him...
Once again friends drift apart and I'm not making to much of an effort to keep in contact just because I feel almost everything is pointless. I feel so sapped of life, nothing to look forward to much anymore everyday is just another day nothing more. The happiest time I have now are usually just talking with friends but everyone has to leave and no one can be there for me forever.
I don't hate life exactly...it's more just I don't have much desire to live anymore. I don't blame anyone for my misery just myself and I always will. Whenever I do this journal entry things if I'm not talking about what I've been doing it's basically the same stuff always, so I'll stop.
 Glomey · Fri May 04, 2007 @ 01:46pm · 0 Comments |
