It's supposed to be fun right? Then why can't I wait until it's over?
I want ACen to be over.....so I can get to work....I'm tired of feeling like I'm nothing....and being seen as even less...by everyone....I want to be taken seriously..and I want to hold up my end of the bargains that I made...The promises that I must keep regardless if someone wants me to keep them or not...I must become stronger more capable to take care of things and people to up-hold my pride...I must become better I don't really have a choice after ACen I must and will change...I can't be the same worhtless me anymore regarless of what happens I've got a life to start....whethere it's mine....or whethere they love me or not.....I refuse to fall into nothing.... and I refuse to let either of them down ...I have too much pride.....love is a luxury..that I must pay to obtain.....I've got so much work to do before I deserve anything....
So this is my last "fake fun weekend" and these are the last dollars that I will waste foolishly without interest in a future....This is the last of it all I can do better..I have to do better....
I want ACen to be over.....so I can get to work....I'm tired of feeling like I'm nothing....and being seen as even less...by everyone....I want to be taken seriously..and I want to hold up my end of the bargains that I made...The promises that I must keep regardless if someone wants me to keep them or not...I must become stronger more capable to take care of things and people to up-hold my pride...I must become better I don't really have a choice after ACen I must and will change...I can't be the same worhtless me anymore regarless of what happens I've got a life to start....whethere it's mine....or whethere they love me or not.....I refuse to fall into nothing.... and I refuse to let either of them down ...I have too much pride.....love is a luxury..that I must pay to obtain.....I've got so much work to do before I deserve anything....
So this is my last "fake fun weekend" and these are the last dollars that I will waste foolishly without interest in a future....This is the last of it all I can do better..I have to do better....
